Vol 155

My Psychology of Women class makes me post a weekly journal. So I'll post them here as well. Sometimes. This is the third one.

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This morning, while I was getting ready for work, I saw a segment on CBS news about "tweens" posting videos on the interest asking the question, "Am I ugly?" They say things like, "people in school call me ugly," and "I just want to know." This opens a whole new world of bullying. Not just bullies at school, but bullies all around the world. But this isn't just something middle America suffers. This is a world-wide-epidemic. I use the word epidemic because it is. Low self-esteem effects a large portion of the worlds citizens, especially teenagers who experience high peer-pressure. 


This just makes me wonder what happened to programs at school and outside that helped combat this type of problem. With commercials advertising so towards the younger population like make-up and bombshell bras, etc...these children develop an unrealistic self image, and there are few and far between images, resources, and role-models to help these young girls and boys learn true beauty and self-respect. Really. What happened to the programs in schools? I'm only 23, but even I had programs that helped boost self-esteem. Is our country so financially unstable that we're cutting everything in school besides standard English and Math? One of my possibility-sorta-might try it job ideas after I graduate is to work with a school or after school program. There is so much I want to introduce to these young inner-city youths, especially females, that I believe can be beneficial to them. Finding that kind of job/program is the hard part. 


When I heard that segment, I immediately thought about my partner presentation about Online Dating. There are many reasons people try dating online, but it's not unheard of for people with low self-esteem to try online dating. Maybe they've had terrible luck with dating in person. Online, the dating field is much larger, the pool of eligibles wider, the chance of meeting more matches greater. You sell yourself with pictures and snarky one-liners to appear attractive. Is that any different from teenagers who post on youtube, "Am I ugly?" 

Vol 154: Mark Likes Comic

Vol 153

So, I'm mentally unstable. (No. Not really. Maybe? I don't know.)

I kind of have myself stifled and choke-holded, I'm wasting my youth, and the consequence of that is stress, anxiety, and other forms of mental strain. (No. Not professional diagnosed. This is just me using my Psychology degree that I haven't finished earning yet.)

Now the way to counter this is obvious by letting go. 

Get out there.

Have a life again. (My teenage years were so much more active. I was only ever in the house when I was grounded...which was a 3rd of the time.)

But honestly, there's nothing to do in this city. 

Unless you have a car.

And I don't.

I don't even have my license. 

So....*whistles*

Or, I can stop choke holding myself, rock out with my cock out, let the creativity out.

Easy for someone like me, right?

Nope. Wrong. Because I have too much creativity and require quite a few a lot of sources to unleash.

I always admit that I can't draw, which is a heartache for me because I have a few ideas I'll never be able to get out because I can't draw. 

((The above an below picture showcases my talent in the drawing area.)

But lately, meaning as of today, I've been into finger-painting (on my iphone with an app). 

Look what I can do!!!